We killed our baby on May 21, 2010. I was passed out during the procedure. I don’t remember anything except waking up crying. Last night (June 7, 2011), I finally decided to face that decision. Theww ideas on your website really touched me. 1. Your advice “Do not make a decision based on problems that feel overwhelming now but which will pass in time.” I vaguely remember hearing that last year. I didn’t belive it. Yesterday I figured that I could have stayed at my 9-5 and he would work at night and I wouldn’t have to worry about not being there. 2. I was in such a daze for weeks after the abortion that I didn’t go for a checkup. Now I’m terrified that I won’t be able to have a healthy pregnancy. 3. We both knew that it was wrong. That we were killing our baby. I knew that I was progrant for two weeks. Found out at 7.5 weeks. It was the most hopeful and intense two weeks of my life. I was full of life and admired my body for the first time. My boyfriend and I became unbelievably close. But then I thought about leaving my infant with others while I went to work. Who would feed it? I didn’t want it to grow up in dirty Northern Virginia. We would run away to where the fresh air is and live in a trailor at the foot of a mountain. But I was too scared to do it. I was so overwhelmed with emotion, with days before it would be too late to abort passing so fast, that I didn’t think straight. I haven’t been able to talk about it with anyone, ever. Boyfriend and I agree that we regret it, but haven’t talked about it for longer than a few minutes. I couldn’t talk to friends. This website is helping me understand what we did. Even this comment section has helped me think, but also to talk to a stranger. I wouldn’t have registered on a commercial abortion message board. Something disgusting about that. I hope that writing this will help me to finally talk to a friend about this.
24-year-old female /
Falls Church, VA